Shrittah, I feel confident in speaking for everyone who has posted in saying that there was no attack intended. Smoking is the devil that helped to get a lot of us here, and not one of us doesn't wish we were your age and could make that choice and avoid all we have been through. It was not an attack, but heartfelt and passionate advice from those of us who have very clear rear view vision, who sincerely do not want anyone else to follow us. With regard to finances, where I live there is a teaching hospital/med school where patients are charged according to ability to pay. Perhaps you can check your area for med school hospitals. We all hope you do not have cancer, and at the same time want to impress upon you that if is IS cancer, waiting will only make things worse. We have your best interests at heart. Please do not take offense.