Sometimes the waiting is the hardest thing to endure. Just because you cant do anything that seems to be producing some sort of results. It has taken me almost 2 months for someone to tell me that I do have cancer, this was last wed. I still have to wait untill next wed to find out how this is to be treated. sometimes I felt like I was spinning on a tilt awirl and nothing seem to stop it.. so I started a small herb garden, using just pots, on a concret lot behind my aptment. after awhile this 5 pot garden, takes up time that I do not spend thinking about "what next". please try to find something that will give your mind, soul, a deep breath, it will help. I have also taken up coloring in coloring books. it does sound silly, but it helps. I wish you the best of luck.