Thanks guys. I really appreciate all of your support. I was so strong from the beginning, always accepting that I had cancer, never asking " why me ?", always very stoic about the things that I had to go through, like getting a feeding tube and twice a day radiation. Everyone has been amazed at how I have handled everything like a champ, and honestly, I never felt depressed. So many people have been so nice and caring and loving that I was kind of uplifted by the whole experience.
But now, after the treatments are through, comes this feeling poorly, bored to death by pouring these cans of formula into the tube 4 times a day, tired of sitting around watching TV, but not feeling like doing anything at all. I need to get to the office if only to gather some more info. for the dastardly insurance companies, and even that seems like to big a chore at present.
I guess that I just did not realize that now came the hard part. I did not expect that I would feel worse than during treatment. I thought that within a matter days, I would start improving. So, I guess for the first time since I was diagnosed at the first of July, I have let this stuff get me depressed. My wouldn't it be nice to just sit down and enjoy a meal...the stuff we used to take for granted.
Thanks for your support,
Danny ( Digtexas )