Hello Darrell,
I also am a newcomer. And You are giving me STRENGTH!
I'm glad you got your weed, because I was gonna help on that one. I have not smoked in years but it's available.
In 1984 I lost my BEST FREIND to testicular cancer. My youngest son has his full name with my last name. I lived in N.J. at the time.
I would bring him an ounce every week to SLOAN-KETTERING in N.Y.C. It would take away his nausia, and give him an appetite. The hospital did not openly condone it, but they looked the other way. My freinds floor was for chomo, and you could smell weed everywhere. They were allowed to smoked it right in their rooms.
Anyway, I just wanted YOU to Know that This is NOT the End of Your Journey.
IT'S THE BEGINNING OF A BEAUTIFUL NEW ONE!
Sincerely, PeteyB