Freddie, after you take a deep breath, the next thing to do is not beat yourself up for not recognizing a potential problem. It is very good that you are having a biopsy. We all say that it isn't cancer until the pathologist says it is, so there is a chance you just have a nasty infection. Sure hope so, but if it is oral cancer you could not have come to a better place for information and emotional support. We will be waiting right along with you for the results, and if you need it, you will get a boatload of advice. Be strong!