I think this is what scares me the most...your out of a horror scene comment. I have been on this forum for 16 years and I’ve read a lot of Very scary stuff. I am right here with you going through the same thing thinking the same thoughts. I am in California and a law was passed to allow a euthanasia pill if two doctors can say that they have less than 6 months to live but I’ve heard the process takes extensive psychiatric sessions and takes about 4 months so it is not an option for us...I am so sorry you are going through this too. I am here if you need to talk...