Hi Jen. I’m Mokie and pretty much in the same boat as you are. I had severe panic attacks when I was diagnosed with SCC of the tongue on 20June. I have no immediate family where I live so I had occasional support by phone. It left many hours of downtime to read and think and fret about the unknown. I don’t know if you have a chosen faith, but I have found strength in my personal beliefs. This and the people on this support site have made it possible for me to get through this first phase of being diagnosed and on to my plan for surgery without being emotionally crippled. Hope can get some comfort soon Jen.