Dear all,

My name is Sarah, I'm 36 years old, and I only gave up smoking 2 weeks ago. First, I want to thank you for reading my post. I'm glad there is a support forum for this, and I never thought would stumble across a cancer supportforum, but here I am.

Last week (6 days ago) I had a biopsy of a slight discolored irregular lump on the right side of my tongue (which I have had for years, but last time I checked it, about 3 years ago, the doctor said it was a pigment spot and nothing to worry about, so I left it). But a few months ago, it started growing, and also an irregular white growth next to it appeared out of nowhere.

Since the biopsy, things have gotten so much worse, the lump in my tongue has doubled in size and grown to underneath my tongue too, it's extremely painful, (the lump was painfree before) and a new tiny painful new sore next to it has appeared as well as a red spot on the other side of my tongue. I can feel two lumps in my stiff neck, and the inside and outside of my upper lips and tongue are absolutely burning, and I'm noticing new sores and patches in my mouth.

I have lost all taste in my mouth (this happened a week before the biopsy), and my tongue was bleeding this morning.. I'm so scared it's cancer, I know I shouldn't google and I'm so angry at myself for not getting it checked again previously.

I know, I'm a big wimp, since it hasn't even been a 100% confirmed yet, but I'm shaking and can't stop crying. The surgeon last week said he wasn't worried about how it looked, but the said only biopsy can confirm. I can't believe how much worse it has gotten in a week!

Any tips at all on how to calm yourself down? Or any word of comfort?

I can barely breathe and I'm so scared of what's a head.

Thank you so much for reading.