I am sorry. I understand. We are half way through my husband's treatment plan. I am not going to lie, it is not easy but I am just so grateful there is a treatment. My husband and I have both had a few meltdowns. He says I am stressed because I am taking care of 2 people. I say he is struggling because even if he can get past a hard emotional day, he still feels like yuck. We try to stay positive and not think about the next step. The thing that helped me the most in the beginning was to write down everything. We are both shocked at the things I wrote down that neither of us remember being told. Hang in there. We are still having some very good days together.