Hallie, please calm down!!! I completely understand where you are coming from. Its a terrifying thought thinking you may have cancer. But being upset will not change anything, it only makes you feel worse. With getting ready for a new baby, you have more than enough going on adding more stress is not good. As I read thru your posts, I see many "what if's". Take a deep breath and focus on what you have within your control. By speculating on the worst possible outcome you went from having a "spot" to not being here at all. Im hoping that you are able to see you are getting way ahead of yourself. From the time of your last post I see you're not sleeping (probably from too much worrying) which doesnt help matters at all. There is not one thing positive that ever came from worrying.

Start immediately keeping yourself extra busy. Having a 4 year old should with that. Every time you go there only allow yourself like 3 minutes to entertain those thoughts then physically get up and do something positive. By keeping very busy it will help you to pass the time easier and hopefully lessen the amount of time you spend worrying. Remember you do not have control over this, you only can control your actions and reactions.

Take things one step at a time. Find an ENT who specializes in oral cancer and not the type of ENT who primarily puts tubes in kids ears. Ive found most ENTs will do a consult appointment first where they examine the patient and tell them what they think it could be. They also will suggest a biopsy (if necessary) and discuss the different option on how it can be done. Some ENTs will do a biopsy at the first appointment but most do not. The ENTs office will check your insurance to see whats covered. After you make your choice, they schedule the biopsy procedure for your next visit. Its very important to take someone with you to all these appointments. Too often patients tune out whats being said missing important info. Some physicians will allow the sessions to be tapes, but you must ask first. Then the third appointment is for the results. These appointments will probably be spread over at least 3 weeks plus it usually takes a few weeks to get in to see the ENT. Waiting is the WORST!!!!! But knowing ahead of time it will likely be at least a month (Im guessing more like 6-8 weeks) before you know anything should help you prepare to manage the wait. With a brand new baby, you will hopefully be able to stay positive and calm during this wait.

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