My once loving husband has turned into someone I don't know! I get called every name in the book over petty things & often for no known reason. He threatens to hurt me at times. My children come over alot with the grandkids, and he never acts like that around them or to them...ever. Only me and sometimes at our 14 year old grandson who lives with us. I try to help him with feeding, meds etc & he tells me he is not helpless or ignorant like I am and that he can do it himself.....so I let him do it himself & if anything goes wrong he blames me for NOT helping him. I am in a lose-lose situation and feeling very emotionally abused. I keep telling myself that we are getting closer to the end of treatment, only 9 more radiations & 1 or 2 chemos. And I also know it will get worse (how i don't know) before it gets better when treatment is over. And then who knows what will happen. Thank you for letting me vent....I don't want or need any sympathy or encouragement....I am way past needing any of that.