Good evening just wanted to offer a few words of support to say I'm totally with you , and can fully relate to feeling your going crazy !! I'm smiling to myself as you have just described me , and I drive my Mike insane too. I constantly am checking inside my mouth with a torch and a mirror , then I get whoever is about to check , and then still not satisfied I then start checking and inspecting and comparing what's in their mouth to my own ! Then is the old Google researching with the odd bit of self diagnosis added to the mix. So much so that my mum refers to me as Dr Diane ! Lol
I have been behaving like this since my diagnosis and to date have no evidence of any further disease , have had a couple of scares and additional biopsies that have all turned out to be okay .
I sort of tell myself I'm being vigilant about my own health , and staying one move a head , I'm ready and almost waiting for something else to occur . Then on the other hand I'm thinking I'm obsessed and it's not healthy to think this way .
Then I take a breathe and say to myself , girl your doing just fine you've been to hell and back but here , back at work , functioning to the best of your ability , and so what if your constantly seeking reassurance , who wouldn't ?
So I shall kick us both in the butt gently shall I!
Good luck with everything thinking of you and keep us posted .
This really is the best place for help and support from people who really know what your going through and where your coming from.