Thank you all so much for the replies! So grateful to read that I am not alone in my fear,anger,and depression. Everyday is a new one for sure. Working still on the signature, but thank you all.
Yes I do feel if I could get into a CCC, my outlook might be more positive. Living in a relatively small town, help is hard to find, Even to see a shrink! Had my first experience with "discrimination"
When someone walked away from me, when trying to ask a question, I got the strangest look. Man that hurt!