Hello, Sharon. Christine has given you great advice. Nutrition and professional help for your anxiety are both big factors in recovery. Learning strategies like mindfulness are helpful while some of the tools of cognitive behavioural therapy are useful too. Best of all is talking to people who've been through the same thing. You can do at here. You can vent!

I don't know how I did it now but I managed to drag myself into the city to take part in a Cancer Society Moving Forward course. It was not long after radiation but it was just what I needed. Whatever groups or cancer related counselling you can access will be of benefit.

I wish you well and hope you see some reduction in the pain soon.

1996, ovarian cancer surgery + cisplatin and taxol.
September, 2007, SCC of left lateral tongue. Excision.
October, 2009 recurrence in scar tissue, T1NOMO. Free flap surgery from left wrist - neck dissection. 63 year old New Zealander. No chemo, no RT.
February, 2014. New primary in left buccal mucosa. Marginal mandibulectomy, neck dissection, right arm free forearm flap. T1N0M0 but third occurrence and some areas of concern: RT started 8 April and finished 19 May.