Gary makes a good point, if this is really getting to you emotionally, anxiety meds are a no brainer. Here a major center will have a psychiatrist to help new patients through the process if necessary, and a short term Rx for some diazepam (Valium) to get you through the rough spots isn't out of the question. Some people deal with anxiety better than others.... me - I'm for a little of "mother's little helper" ala Rolling Stones when things get out of hand emotionally.

Brian, stage 4 oral cancer survivor. OCF Founder and Director. The first responsibility of a leader is to define reality. The last is to say thank you. In between, the leader is a servant.