YOu my dear are a trooper. I can't imagine how hard it is to not have anyone to rely on. I am sorry your parents aren't doing well either . I say I can readily identify with this as I had just gotten past the one year mark in treatment when my father had a stroke - he was in a facility but I attended to him daily he passed away 8 months later then I had a small reprieve before my father in law was diagnosed with Esophageal cancer - it's been a year since he finished treatment and so far he is NED (no evidence of disease). I do have plenty of people here who did offer help but it was nice for the most part just to have someone to chat with. I gather it is very hard to keep your spirits up without social gatherings and the such. This group should help as we are a tight knit bunch - Perhaps find your passion and follow that to give you some mental time away from this. Reading? Writing? Gardening? Painting? Try something new - maybe something you've always wanted to do?

Chemo is not fun. But I find it much more doable than rads. This is not the case for everyone - it depends on the chemo. Hugs and welcome