Dear Nelie,
I am sure you will overcome all the obstacles that you are facing on date. There are so many motivating factors and the will to fight that makes things easier. If you are swallowing your saliva and sipping ice tea - even though you do feel th discomfort there are not too many chances of your food passge closing down. In case you are in a mood to eat some more solids then the iced tea - try sprying some xylocaine in your mouth - which will numb the area as it is a local anesthesia and totally safe. I would recommend you meet an oncologist in regard to the same. If what I have put down stands good to the doctor there is no reason why you must worry about a peg tube. However - if the peg does become a necessity - one gets used to it and it hardly visable to anyone in case you feel it makes you unhappy. I used to feel like freak but soon accepted what had hppened and I was the only one who would decide on how to feed and where. I really do not mind the wierd looks I get at public places when I take out the peg to have a drink or water or maybe a coke.
You will come good - Ihave no doubts on that score.
Tke care,
Ananth