If you are diagnosed and still can't quit, I would be glad to send you brochures my sister has put together describing not only my brother's battle, but that of our family as we watched him suffer and the cancer finally defeat his valiant efforts and our enormous love for him. I am not judging. We each have our own crosses to bear. But I would be happy to share David's journey with you. Maybe it would help you choose a different road. If you are found to be cancer free please let this be a wake up sign. I promise you with all my heart this is not a road you want to find yourself on today or in the future.
All my best,