Thank you everyone for the info, the archives have alot to offer, Im also thankful for the encouragement, I sometimes get overwhelmed when I think of whats ahead and wish we could just go back to before the 13th of may. The strangest thing....when my father in law was in the hospital, before he was even diagnosed with terminal lung cancer, my husband had been doing a family geneology and had found some very old family photos with his great grandfather, his dads grandfather and some uncles, and my father in law looked at the photo and said...."You know everyone of them died from cancer" I will never forget that moment. We had never thought there was any cancer in my husbands side of the family. Well enough, I am resolved to be as postive as i can be and to be my husbands strenght when he needs me to be, and my childrens as well. I will do some smoothies today, I know he likes them. Thanks again, I know there will be times i will need your support and strenght as well. God Bless, Sue F