HI BLAYNE , GLAD TO HEAR U R DOING WELL . YOUR FAMILY CATCHES THE BLUNT OF YOUR ANGER BECAUSE THEY R CLOSER TO U . IT WILL GET BETTER , I HAVE DONE THE SAME THING . MY ANGER WAS EVEN DIRECTED OUTSIDE OF MY HOME . PEOPLE IN PUBLIC . I THOUGHT I WOULD HURT SOMEONE . NOT ON PURPOSE BUT BECAUSE I WAS SO FULL OF ANGER . IT WILL GET BETTER I PROMISE . U CAN GET SOME ANTI-DEPPRESSANTS . I DID . IT REALLY DOES SEEM TO HELP . ANTTIME U NEED TO TALK U CAN EMAIL ME @ MODAPPU@YAHOO.COM. HOPE U HAVE A GOOD DAY .