Your reaction is normal, and just shows a concern for the outcome of your treatment, and fear of the unknown. The lymph nodes are often filled with fluids, and is not a true measure of the tumor itself within. When the biopsies are done, they can tell the true size, and re-stage the disease. There are other factors as important like node ECE, PNI. It's not uncommon with HPV to have more than one nodal involvement, and that are bigger than the primary due to the richness in blood supply, and nutrients in that area.

Good luck with surgery tomorrow.

10/09 T1N2bM0 Tonsil
11/09 Taxo Cisp 5-FU, 6 Months Hosp
01/11 35 IMRT 70Gy 7 Wks
06/11 30 HBO
08/11 RND PNI
06/12 SND PNI LVI
08/12 RND Pec Flap IORT 12 Gy
10/12 25 IMRT 50Gy 6 Wks Taxo Erbitux
10/13 SND
10/13 TBO/Angiograph
10/13 RND Carotid Remove IORT 10Gy PNI
12/13 25 Protons 50Gy 6 Wks Carbo
11/14 All Teeth Extract 30 HBO
03/15 Sequestromy Buccal Flap ORN
09/16 Mandibulectomy Fib Flap Sternotomy
04/17 Regraft hypergranulation Donor Site
06/17 Heart Attack Stent
02/19 Finally Cancer Free Took 10 yrs