Well. Today I taught 5 HS Chemistry classes, complete with really neat first day EXPLOSIONS. Then taught 2 8th grade Math classes. The entire time I went over first of the year procedures, rules, and supply lists....the back of my mind knows that I will probably miss alot of this school year with them. Tomorrow after lunch, I will leave them all in the care if a substitute teacher and travel 2 hours from home to meet with the Oncologist for the first time. We will discuss treatment of this SCC on the right side of my tongue. Will I just have surgery??? What stage is it? Has it spread to my lymph nodes? Will I have a neck dissection to check? Will I need radiation and chemo? What's my prognosis? Will I see my 15 and 12 year old sons graduated from High School? College? Will I meet my grandchildren? I have many questions for tomorrow.........My mother cut her vacation short to go with my husband and me tomorrow. A third set of ears is always good. Us I will record the appt on my iPhone....never can remember everything a doctor says.

I'm covered in many prayers.....but just under my smiling surface is raging fear and anxiety. Tomorrow my life will change....tomorrow.....my battle with C begins.