Ok, I posted a reply but don't see it? Lol So I will try again. Thank you guys so much! This is such a lovely place for help and support and you are all wonderfully strong awesome people. I will try what was suggested with the e-cig just to help with the final stretch of quitting, I have cut back but have not conquered quitting completely. My story, I found the lump around Christmas time 2012, just happened to feel it with my tongue, 2 months time it didn't go away. I went to a dentist because I thought I should get it checked, he dismissed it because he couldn't see it... It's in a very awkward place. 3 months more went by and it's still there, so I went to an ENT ( I don't have insurance) he wanted an MRI done on it but I couldn't afford it. So I had to get on carelink which is the Health System through the University in San Antonio they go off of income. I had to wait 2 weeks, then get referred to ENT which took another 2 weeks lol Then he referred me to the oral surgeon, he insisted I needed a biopsy because it was hard, and bigger underneath the surface, and because of its location. After biopsy everything hurt, my throaght, my right ear, my right jaw... It was like it connected with som many nerves. So anyways thank you for the support on the wait, I am going to try my best to calm down, and take some advice on moving appointment, if not I will at least know on Tuesday instead of Friday! I am extra nervous because I am pregnant and I may be crazy but I think hormones can do so many things to a women's body, may even speed up things. So silently trying to except something bad but hoping for the best. Thanks!