good luck Laura. thanks for writing. I am 31 with a four year old son and think its beng a parent that worries be the most. I have had to go through a lot of tragic things in my life, who hasnt? And i just cant be taking any more. This morning was a horrible scare, i got a letter about a planned neck ultrasound but because it said on it that is was an ultrasound guided neck biopsy i totally freaked out and thought it meant theyd had the mouth biopsy results and were sending me fr further examination, the hospital assured me its not and its iust the procedure and not results back from mouth biopsy yet. I have seen too much death dying misery in my life i am so scared also i have issues with my parter, father of my child so that doesnt help i feel like he always makes me feel guilty for things all these years of arguments and emotional pain i dont think its surprising my health is never right. If i am negative and dont have any abnormal cells etc i want to do some charitable work this year if i am fit anf healthy i want to help others to get through hardship i want to help others who are in pain, i hope i get to live ut my dreams of being a counsellor, no ine should be alone and in pain, life is too precious to suffer it good luck Laura i am hoping for you that it will be all ok xxxxx