Tinara, please dont get ahead of yourself. Worrying can cause much unneeded stress. Ive been in your situation more times than I would like to count, some have been recurrences and others false alarms. This has taught me to remain calm and to go about my regular life until I get bad news that I am sick. Until you hear you have cancer try to keep very busy to keep your mind off worrying. By staying super busy it will also help to tired you out so you can sleep at night. I think of cancer like a thief, it steals your time away from you and your family. By not giving in to the worrying, you are the one in control. It isnt easy but you can overcome the anxiety with concentration on positive things.

I am living proof that recurrences are NOT always deadly. Ive had oral cancer 3 times and Im still here. My last round was in 2009. Yes, OC is a difficult cancer to get thru but it can be done. Please click on the blinking envelope next to the "my Stuff" tab, its full of important info to help you with the forum.

Wishing you all the very best!!! Hope you do NOT join our recurrence club.

Christine
SCC 6/15/07 L chk & by L molar both Stag I, age44
2x cispltn-35 IMRT end 9/27/07
-65 lbs in 2 mo, no caregvr
Clear PET 1/08
4/4/08 recur L chk Stag I
surg 4/16/08 clr marg
215 HBO dives
3/09 teeth out, trismus
7/2/09 recur, Stg IV
8/24/09 trach, ND, mandiblctmy
3wks medicly inducd coma
2 mo xtended hospital stay, ICU & burn unit
PICC line IV antibx 8 mo
10/4/10, 2/14/11 reconst surg
OC 3x in 3 years
very happy to be alive smile