I dont even know if i am suppose to be here or not.. for the past year i have had canker sores on the left side of my tongue- i can't recall how many times.. but even stranger was the fact that i would get left ear pain- bad ear pain.. sometimes i just wanted to pull my ear out with a screwdriver (never did though).. i thought it was because i was some freak of nature... about 2 weeks ago again i got another canker sore and i knew because of the oncoming ear pain.. i looked in the mirror and there it was the little white spot.. no big deal i thought-- it goes away in a few.. but it didn't.. not only that it changed its appearance- i looked one morning and it looked like a slit in the middle.. odd little thing- so i was a little concerned.. went online- maybe not the best thing to do.. and made apt with dentist.. he didn't know what it was- did a visilite test and it was negative.. he ordered me kenalog orabase.. but he did tell me to make an apt with an oral surgeon to have a biopsy done---

mind you i am 35, non-smoker, unemployed and no insurance- i don't want to jump into any conclusions.. so i figure that i will use the medicine- the paste-- for a couple of days and see where it goes.. i have been taking for more than 48 hours and nothing- not even one change.. not one iota.. now i am little concerned-- what most concerns me is the pain.. the pain that i still have.. that and now it looks like a little crater.. not a slit but it opened up a bit..

my question- and i am sorry- but i have had to vent.. SHOULD i be concerned?? should i even be here?? is that visilite screening test 100% accurate???

should i feel like "this can't be happening to me?"