Thanks David, I feel so helpless when my anxiety starts spiralling. I had a persistent cough not long ago and was coughing up a bit a blood, not much but enough to have myself convinced that cancer was not only back but travelled to my lungs. Its exhausting living in fear. I have my pet in 8 weeks, it'll be a long wait but once the holidays are over and I'm back at work that will pass the time more quickly. I even rang a big cancer centre in Sydney
"just in case" the news isnt good after my next scan so that way I won't have to go on a long waiting list to see the surgeon. I can always cancel if it's not needed. Thanks heaps for your replies, it really does help.