I was visiting a friend in the hospital yesterday when my drain port burst and I became a draining, oozing mess. I went to the ER and they sent me back to Morristown where I've been since last night. I have a post-op infection. There was an abcess that burst. I actually had a fever but didn't know it because I had been taking Tylenol with codeine so it was low grade. Yesterday morning I didn't feel good either. Just grateful I was in a hospital when it burst and had already had antibiotics in my system. I'm on two antibiotics and probiotics for diarrhea. I am no longer in pain so I just take Benadryl because I'm reacting slightly to something. That stuff knocks me out. I also take Xanax because if I let myself go to that dark place, I just want to snap out of it. I just want to be as high as a Dead Head but haven't done that since college so I settle for pharmaceuticals. Does the trick.

This sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks!

10/2/12 Surgery Dx Stage II SCC RLT
11/12/12 Further tongue resec and SND. 3 of 22 lymph + SCC Stage IVa
11/22/12 Hospitalized for infection incision at neck
12/5/13 PET scan tumor at BOT
12/26/12-2/27/13 RT and Cisplatin
4/1/13-5/17/13 3 rounds of Cisplatin, Taxotere and 5-FU
7/19/13 Pet Scan possible recurrence
8/23/13 2nd op at MSKCC, CT Scan
8/31/13 MRI. Both show sizeable mass
9/11/13 CT-guided needle BX + SCC
10/1/13 Erbitux, Cisplatin and Taxotere
2/14/14 Passed away