Kelly

We can't change our facts of difficulty, loss, & heartbreak. We can't change the mental, physical, & emotional pain of multiple recurrences. Challenges, difficulties, even tragedies happen every day to people who deserve better. All we can control are our reactions and responses when life takes these wicked turns.
No shoulda-coulda-woulda to add to our suffering.
Hey, the free flap surgery works fine: I have a floor of the mouth shaped scar on my wrist where they took the flap. They replaced it with skin from my groin which has very dark curly pubic hair but it blends in great since I had and still have plenty of hair on my arms and chest. You can't even see the scar on my groin. Oh and splitting the jaw, they put it back with a nice titanium plate and screws that do not set off any airport alarms although the naked body scanner showed them.

You are always so up on treatment. Have you thought about robotic TORS surgery? I've heard great things about it if you get an experienced surgeon. At the time, they weren't doing stage IV tumors but focused on tumors like yours even then.

Hang in there buddy. You and I were born to be the last men standing. Neither of us is quite ready to be returned to the manufacturer. See you at the finish line
Charm