Hang On There Girl...........Frank was nurse and smoked and continued to smoke for 2 years after diagnosis. What`s done is done, wanna know something? I`m an RN, lived with oral cancer for 5 years, watched the love of my life die, and I smoke.......do I know the risks, yes, I`ve quit lots of times. No one on this board is perfect, everyone knows I`m not. The important thing is you stopped, you can`t change the past and right now you need all your energy for the fight ahead. Feelings great hurt on a pretty regular basis on the board............mine included.....i know you`re new to all this, and overwhelmed at this point...........there are lots of here for you........Just give us a chance..........Hugs, Dee