Don't forget to live in this moment, too. This has been the worst year of my life but strangely I've experienced time I can only describe as blissful. Sometimes it lasts a few moments, sometimes much longer. I guess I've had to learn that it can all change in the length of time it takes to read one piece of paper so now when I feel happy, I have a profound awareness of really FEELING happy.

One thing on my bucket list is I want to scuba dive again. C'mon Deejer 47, give us something off your list.

CG to husband Stage IV SCC left tonsil 11/11. Mets to 7 nodes on left, 2 on right, no distant mets. PEG, 7 weeks radiation and weekly Cisplatin ended Feb 10, 2012. PET 04/12 areas consistent with inflammation, complete response in nodes. Recurrence 09/13 pulmonary lymphatics. Died 22 Oct following an allergic reaction to Erbitux.