Everything you are experiencing right now is temporary. While going thru treatments the future can look pretty bleak. We have had several musicians on the forum who have gone on to have successful careers after rads.

Towards the end many of us have lost our voices completely. I couldnt even whisper for about 3 weeks. I got very good at hand gestures and scribbling on a dry erase board. Losing your voice can be another temporary side effect, hope you dont have this issue.

You are past the half way point now. I know its not easy and it can be scary not knowing what to expect while feeling lousy. Heres a tip to help keep track of your progress and also to help you see your accomplishments. I would use holidays as goals for myself. For instance, 4th of July is coming up and you will have finished everything by then. You could plan to be well enough to attend a 4th of July celebration. By Labor Day you will be so much better that all of this will be just a memory. I finished rads in September and planned on having a huge Thanksgiving with tons of people and food. I know its far off but by Thanksgiving you will be so much better. You should be able to eat almost everything and taste it too. Its going to be the very best Thanksgiving you have ever experienced! You could even be back to doing your theater work again by then.