I'm so sorry for your loss but take comfort knowing your mom is out of pain and in a better place. I lost my 75 year old mom 4 years ago to pancreatic cancer. She died at home on hospice, her final wish. No one can understand how horrible and gut wrenching it is to watch someone you love so much suffer and die from cancer. My mom had nothing to eat or drink the last two weeks of her life and still hung on. Dying from pancreatic cancer is so painful. My sister never left her side the entire two weeks. My sister and I are also very close but this made us a lot closer. My parents were very happily married for 56 years and we kept telling her it was ago to go but we think she held on for him.

It's hard to imagine right now but eventually your good memories will outshine the sad last days of your mom's life. Hugs