Hi,Minniea, Welcome you have found the best place to be at this time the people here are very supportive.I know what you mean about the radiation its a horrible ordeal we all have to go through ,but what would our chances be without it?You will get better and better every day, it's a slow process but you will get there. I look back on this last year now with amazement,fighting this battle with cancer can make you stronger than you ever thought you could be.Hang in there and we are all here if you need encouragement. Gwen