Rod thinks his cancer has returned at the base of his tongue. He is very negative. I am going to call the oncologist on Monday to make an appt for them to check it out. He is feeling very unwell. I am doing the best I can, but it's very frustrating at times. I talk to people and tell them what Rod wants, and when someone asks what Jeanna wants, I have no answer. I am seeing my psychiratrist next week, think my meds will have to be increased, because at this point I don't want to be here. Same feelings, different day. How can I get him to be more positive about life?? At this point, he just wants to lay down & die. I just don't know how to deal with this.....