So I went to see my surgeon today thinking that he was just checking up on my left cheek, when he pokes around and says that "yes, he will do a biopsy of an area he has been watching". Well I'll be damned. He was scheduling 2 week spaced follow ups but he never specifically told me that he was watching an area on the left side - near my flap from 2004 - near the "left anterior tonsil pillar".

Mmmmmmmmm........not sure what to think. All the worriers out there know how I feel right now. And those of you who have learned to not buy tomorrow's trouble will tell me so - it isn't cancer till they says its cancer, and Good Lord, I know all this. Somehow tho, that drop in the pit of your stomach still shows up. I like to think I handle these lumps, bumps, biopsies better than I used to - but I think perhaps I just have better drugs now.

I feel better when I post my worries where I know you guys understand. It is so hard to burden your family with these worries when I'm sure they are tired of hearing about it.

My surgeon drives me nuts. I would worry far less if I knew there was a Plan to deal with a bad result. So I said to him - if it isn't great news - what would the plan be? He replies - AS HE ALWAYS DOES - "we aren't going there yet". He obviously doesn't understand my need to know that there IS a plan - even if it is Plan W.

Throat hurts where he took the biopsy. Going to take a pill and go lay down.

Thanks for listening!!

Donna