Lizzie, sorry to read your news, and welcome to our little online community. You've come to the right place for support and information.

As I had two of the three standard therapies I can't offer you the info you seek on alternatives, but I'm sure someone will weigh in.

Sounds as if you've got a great team on your side and I'll be sending the good thoughts your way on Friday.

David 2

Oh, and rereading this...

Only those of us who've sat there in a doctor's office and been told we have cancer, and metastatic cancer at that, can know how it feels. Which is to say catastrophic, numbing, terrifying, cataclysmic... you choose the words. The feeling is the same.

And we all then process it in our own ways. All of this is to say that it made me sad to see "expecting the worst" in your post. For me anyway, I never had any doubts that I'd get through this. And I'm not by nature a glass half full kind of guy and have had long bouts of major depression over the years.

We're in the realm of feelings so common ground is difficult to find. Right now you're likely feeling a lot like those poor earthquake survivors in Japan: lost, cut off from your emotional moorings, fearing the future.

All I can offer in the way of solace is to urge you to keep things in a realistic rather than a pessimistic place. No question that you (and all of us) face an uphill battle against a determined foe. But I found it useful to place that foe in perspective and remind myself that I was a person of determination and inner strength, that I had a medical team uniquely skilled to help me (and which yours certainly seems to be) and that every day that I was around to breathe the air and contemplate how great it is to be alive is a blessing. And, I should add, I'm not a religious person. This is about being human.

Ok, enough of this blabbering! I'm thinking about you.