Suzee - I'm so glad your father has you for his weekend caregiver and cheer-er up-er person! The emotions can be pretty tough to deal with and it is so good he has you! He doesn't have too many more tx to go and as you noted, it could get harder before it gets better. But it does get better! And there are some good things to keep in mind, too - like his weight has been good so far and he is at a good place for getting some excellent care. I'm so glad you found this OCF forum! When my son was going thru treatment, he really got depressed, and very, very tired, sleeping most of the time - so whatever I found on this forum that I thought would make him feel better, I would print it out for him to see when he woke up, and it did help so much! Stay in touch, and let us know what's happening. Things will get better!