Joy,
Of course you're crying and worried! Who wouldn't be???
At least there's a schedule of tests/consults.
Hey, I worried for 5 years about my dad--but he made 5 years!
And as for myself, well, knowing what I'm dealing with, I just know and accept.
Post all you want/need as it's so therapeutic--no-one can predict the future and outcomes, as all on here know, are different.
In my thoughts Joy and keep us updated on how things go.

Brenda