It have been very emotional last two months but Avi's fight was finally over last Monday, 30.11. I know in my mind that is the best for him as he has been spared any more sufferings but my heart will need time to accept and heal.
I have not been posting after he had his first CT which showed that the cancer had not disapaered. He got this news in end of October but I was very blessed that I could be with him then as we lived in different countries. He then went for a second opinion who confirmed the diagnosis. At that time he was utterly exhausted by the never ending hospital visits and more so by the piling up of bad news. By beginning of Nov he was informed that the cancer could not be cured only option would be aggressive chemo which definately would weaken him further and would need 3 month before any evaluation could be done on the effect. We disscussed the topic when I came over with the children so we could celebrate Dewali together. He decided against it and vowed to concentrate all his energy on positive thinking. He very well achived his goal.We had a wonderful week together, even though he lost his voice totally during this time and had to be hospitalized again because of a severe infection. I went back but promised to come again soon.
On Nov 23rd he celebrated his birthday which he helped to organize and saw many many of his friends. I felt sad not to be able to be there but found comfort in seeing him soon again. It was not going to happen as he passd quickly last Monday. I talked to him last on Sunday evening and finished with my ususal phrase "Did I tell you today?... I love you."
Against all doctor's predictions he managed to avoid tracheotomy and went before major pain and discomfort started. I find a lot of comfort in this.
My thoughts are with all of you either fighting or being family or friends of someone.
Nici