Wayne, I'm sorry this has happened in your life and wish there was something I could do to help you feel better. But, we all know it's a process that you will work through. You're a tough guy, look who raised you! It seems he taught you well and that he will continue to teach you for many years from now. That's the beauty of us parents you know.......even when we're not there, our kids carry us in their minds, remembering what we have said, wondering what we would do, etc. He lives on in you. It's awesome how God works that all out, it amazes me on a daily basis.
Love,
Minnie