ChristinaB, thank you for your reply. Brian Hill and I have mutual friends and I spoke to him today and he suggested that I connect with you but you beat me to it. As you can see I have added a signature line (ty for the hint) I'm totally running in circles (my mind anyway) right now. My ENT wants to do the total maxillectomy even though he says it's localized this time, he wants to do the other because it's my 3rd occurance. I'm single so i'm worried about time off work, losing my job, money to pay all bills, monthly plus the medical (i do have insurance which will help) It sounds like u have really been through it, how have you been able to cope with it all?