Jon, please do not let the few that are buried in "science, or didactic knowledge" prevent you from joining the dialog. The most valuable thing that happens on these boards, is the emotional support, the reassurance that there are people like you out there - that made it- especially when a newbie visits the boards. We all rejoice in your survivorship, and do not hear the positive stories often enough. If you are silent, others will not have the gift of your positive words about the life you now have after your battles. Hope is a gift that you might give, to someone who is now as scared as you were awhile ago. Do not think so little of what you have to offer, it is a significant thing.