ouch, that smarts. i know i'm still living in a fantasy land where i'm going to wake up and my life will be back to normal.
thanks for all the replies. i know i'm lucky to have gotten into msk. what i'm really interested in is alternative methods to support my immune system, etc, while i'm undergoing treatment. i've always been so healthy, and avoided doctors, and am having a hard time with the realization that now i'm so dependent on the medical establishment.
again thanks for all the input, and sorry for the whining.

DX 6/21/10, SCC BOT, left node involvement.
7/3/10, PET scan clear.
possible robotic surgery, possible alternative therapy.