Thanks everyone - the ride was verrrryyyy long, and tense - He gets very INTENSE when he goes into surgery. He did fine, but is in the worst mood that I've ever seen him in. He wrote me a note - basically said that this was the last straw for him - he's tired of not being able to walk across the room without having to rest, not being able to talk, constantly in pain and feeling like knives are going thru him. He won't go talk to anybody and he is almost to the point of driving me into the ground. I'm exhausted - working during the day and then home at night dealing with an intensity that we've not ever experienced. So, trying to keep my chin up and waiting for his voice to return. Thanks for letting me vent - it's been even a little more stressful around my home these past few days... Paula