Something was bothering me in my throat. Doesn't hurt, but it felt like I didn't swallow some food well. Like sometimnes when I eat something crunchy and it gets stuck on the back of my tongue. Except all I ate today was yogurt smoothie and a banana. So I got home and looked. There are white spots all over the right side of my throat. That's the bad side. It looks so frighteningly familiar to what my tongue SCC looiked like, except it's all over half of my throat. I emailed my ENT who saw me just two days ago and said everything looked absolutely fine. But who knows, maybe htese things become visible overnight. I am totally frantic, nauseous and shaking. If it's back, it's pretty much the end. I got the max radiation dose already. A year since surgery. Not even a year since the treatment ended.

I hope he can see me tomorrow.