Colleen, I'm sorry and I know that words can't help to ease the pain. I watched my own mom die from pancreatic cancer and there are no words to describe the last 2 weeks of her life and how horrific it was. When she died she probably weighed around 80 lbs. Before she was diagnosed she weighed 165 lbs. My mom fought long and hard for 3 1/2 years but unfortunately she lost her battle. My mom will be gone 2 years on the 28th and I miss her every day. You are way to young to have lost your mom. I feel blessed that I had my mom for 44 years. The first year is the hardest. I remember some days just feeling like I was in a fog and just going through the motions. It will get better. What helped me get through was KNOWING that my mom wouldn't have wanted any of us to stop living because she was no longer here for us. I try to make decisions and live my life the best I can knowing that she is looking down on us and helping us get through.

I do believe in heaven and that we are all only on this earth for a short time and that we will eventually be reunited. My parents were married for 56 years and my dad is 79. He is angry and bitter and can not move on or get over the loss of my mom. It makes it hard on all of us and I don't think my mom would be pleased with his behaviors and actions. Feel free to come here and vent. For us mother-less daughters their will always be a void. Sending you a "HUGE" hug and prayers for better, peaceful days. Wanda