Hi BRC - Sorry to hear there was sickness in your family. Hope they are doing better, now. There is so much valuable information and support at this site, so please do stay in touch. Having never smoked, I cannot even begin to understand how difficult it is to quit, especially if you are also battling OCD, but I have relatives (my mother for one) and dear friends that died too early as a result of smoking or using tobacco. I do know that there are a lot more strategies and types of help in quitting today than we had a few years ago. Perhaps you will find one that works for you. I hope so.