So glad to hear you're getting started; talk about a mixed blessing. You want to get it started so you can get it over with, but the reality of it is terrifying. Ok, so maybe I am projecting my feelings on you, but I (should) start on the 8th, and that's how I am feeling. And good for you for prodding your doctors. Sometimes I think they need some pushback from us!

Stage 4: Mid-line BOT primary; Left Lymph Node 4-5cm HPV+
Chemo/Rad 10/08/12; 3 big doses cisplatin
Updated 10/16 refusing Cisplatin; due to side effects
Considering Carboplatin; discussing with doctors.
Corp. Trainer- South New Jersey
Life is What Happens When You're Busy Making Other Plans.