We have talked so many times and he always says he doesn't mean to hurt me and sometimes doesn't even know why I am crying. I can somewhat understand that part of the not knowing why I am crying as we are coming up on the 23rd to the 5th year our oldest son disappeared off a cruise ship and was never found. Then a month later we learned our oldest daughter has full aids and last week she was so sick with a t-cell count of 93. So yes I tend to cry a lot and I guess he gets a bit confused as these things don't seem to affect him in the same way. We renewed our vows 4 days before he had his neck surgery and love each other very much. I know this disease is hard on everyone it touches. I guess we just need to vent sometimes to ones who understand. Thank you for reading and responding.
I do intend on showing him this site so he can read for himself what is going on with not just us but with so many others.